Time passes, little by little.

Time passes, and little by little everything that 

we have said in falsehood becomes true.

I'm stuck in a realization that I do not want to come face to face with. I do not want to think of what will happen once I give in and the dreadful thought fills up the corners of my mind. I'm not one to spill her emotions and serve them out on a platter for everyone to look at and sulk for my sorrow. So I will refrain myself from telling anyone but myself. Perhaps I should release my emotion through the beauty of my piano. Or maybe the guitar. Music has always seemed to have a very strange calming effect on me.
On the topic of music- I have been composing a new song on the piano for quite a lengthy period of time. I've just completed it and now I am working on a guitar part. Once I'm complete- I think I'll be very self-fulfilled, I haven't done anything nice for myself in a while. 

The Cullens' Kentucky Derby party was quite an affair. I met some very interesting new people whilst I was visiting. I've never realized how many of us there are. The world seems so cramped. I had a nice walk through Esme's garden, as well. She is so amazing at everything she does. Walking through her garden and seeing all of the beauty, it's hard to believe that there is no god up in the sky- somewhere. 

I'm departing from my blog for now, as I don't know what else to say. I'm not prone to telling everyone every thought that is in my mind. So it's just a miracle I've even written this short but sweet entry.